I suffer from abortion angst !

I suffer from abortion angst !

Thanks for the email about "Unborn baby grabs Surgeon". It really moved me to tears, and I cried and cried and cried...

I HAD an abortion when I was 16. It was the right thing for me at the time but I still cry about it. I’d only been with my boyfriend a few weeks at the time. I was still a kid myself and I didn’t know if I was going to stay with my boyfriend.

It was the worst experience of my life and I would never do it again.

I’m 18 now. I’m still with my boyfriend but since the abortion my sex drive hasn’t been the same. I just don’t feel like it any more. Sometimes I think back to that day. I don’t regret it because I wasn’t ready to have a baby, but I do wonder what I’d be doing now if it hadn’t happened.

I know it changed me and made me grow up a lot. I still cry now and again and I don’t know why. I’m just confused I guess. I see people who are pregnant and it makes me think “Do I want one?” or am I just thinking back to what I did?

I can’t talk to my boyfriend because he won’t understand. He was there for me at the time and helped me through it. But he doesn’t like talking about it any more because he says it upsets him too even though he didn’t want the baby either.

I can’t understand what’s wrong with me. Please help me...

THank you, God Bless your hearts... I know you do have the heart to help me out....

~Sonia

My dad a roman catholic and my mom was a Hindu and they are no more. I came to know now that my mom had aborted baby and due to this there is lots of problems in our house, there are curses, block in our life. I want to repent for my parent sin and pray for the aborted soul. what are the curses that flow to the family after abortion?
~Maria.

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by Dominic D'Cruz on 13th Oct, 2008

Hello, I really think you need to speak openly to a priest who will help you first come to terms with yourself, then advise you and guide you on how to set the wrongs right.Open up to God completely,be strong and He will see you through. Pray whenever you can,ask people to pray for you. I surely will.
God Bless and keep your faith strong.

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by Alice on 14th Oct, 2008

Dear friend, I hope you know that Jesus died for our sins and it is finished on the Cross, just go to the alter and confess your sins HE is a forgiving God , and then don't remember it anymore and try not to make the same mistakes twice. GOD BLESS.

I am termed LivingSaviour of the World

by Steve Robertson (Alban John Lewis) on 14th Oct, 2008

Dear Maria and Sonia Children of God,
God has given you a life in the world you live in. You decided to take the steps of sin for the lust of it and greed of it, you will do it again.. you are still with your boyfriend.

For the details if you really wish resurection in your life, take my words seriously as i am pious, spotless and 50 years of age and a billionare but i never even hug a woman till i married when 36 of age.. this is what it takes to love God.
if you really mean you love God, from this second on say to yourself to live a life of chastity and celerbracy the rest of your life no matter how you feel you can say yes to this and pray and the mum that is married she can pray too and you will see resurrection or Gods mercy is abundant but he did not tell a woman to do everything for a child to be conceived and treat it a garbage, and consider god will not make cabbage out of you.
Prove yourself to god you are his worthy child and avoid men the rest of your life....

Confession and Mass only solution.

by M. Noronha on 14th Oct, 2008

Dear Sonia & Maria, Please ask the concerned to make a good confession with a catholic priest; offer a mass for the aborted soul and attend a week long retreat by a catholic priest. Do not repeat such things. Once this is done the Lord will help them to walk in the path of righteousness.

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by Derek on 14th Oct, 2008

prayers can only help all the broken hearts to get back to each other think of the lord jesus who died on the cross to each one of of sin, think of the wounds of jesus on his hands, feet, and his body, will help you to be strong in faith

dont make mistake against

by Francis Pereira on 14th Oct, 2008

dear sonia please make a confession and forget your old life, jesus died on cross to each of one must die and sundder to your life in jesus hand he will take care of you thanks and may god bless you sonaia

just be open to God

by Lawrence Dsouza on 14th Oct, 2008

hi to both my request to your'll is you hav to talk to eachother about this problem. you have to fight with your problems and go head with your life . i would prefer your'll to have a baby which will solve all the problems in your life coz it is said that when a baby is born its a joy on heaven and on hte earth and in the family where the baby is born. so bless your'll both.

Sacrifice and Penance will get you there

by Ken Fernandes on 14th Oct, 2008

God has forgiven you two. Please make sacrifices and penance daily to enter God's Kingdom

Jesus our Forgiving Lord

by Luiza DSouza on 14th Oct, 2008

Dear Sonia and Maria,
Remember that Bible says our God is a forgiving god. All of us make mistakes in life but asking forgiveness with God is the prime obligation. Sonia, forget for happened at a very early age when u were not able to decide but now that u are grown up and more matured, at the same time u are carrying on with the same boyfriend, then make a good confession and get married to the boy and have ur child which will help u forget ur loss in life. Maria ur parents are no more and Im sure with your prayers God has forgiven them. Remember God does not punish us but forgives so the block in life is not a curse but just a time which will pass away. Since ur mom was a hindu she may not be knowing all our catholic rights so please get a priest to bless ur home, pray that their souls may rest in peace and then Im sure all these curses will pass away and all u children will stay happy. What they did in life does not effect the children only if their souls rest in peace will there be peace and happiness in ur home.

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by Mali Alin Ganguly on 14th Oct, 2008

Dear Sonia ,this guilt will remain with till you die, no matter whether done intentionally you cannot do anything to wash your guilt, BUt keep praying to God our father to forgive you and bless you and guard and guide you in your weakness of time. So that you don't commit this again in your life. Other ways are keep pills to avoid this situation in future. God bless you with happiness.

dont worry be happy

by ignatius on 14th Oct, 2008

dont look back. d past is out of u r hands. make ur n his life d best. enjoy within limits. if u do not do ur duty, after marriage then ur inviting trouble. with best wishes to u both in all that u do.

Change Your Life Sonia and Maria

by Jerome franklin saldanha on 14th Oct, 2008

When such mortal sins are commited, your mind and body is handed over to satan, to get out of this, you have to now confess your sins, go to a good councellor, give a mass for the child with a name, and keep the name so as pray for the child and offer it to god, most important is you fulfill the commandments of God and with all obedience, and do his will not your will, only then Gods mercy will flow on you and then there will be peace and your house will be free of spirits of darkness, not only will you shine once again, but you will prosper.Root cause of abortion it effects your mind, so do what i said and you will be free, if you were here close by i would have prayed with you and over you.

Accountant.

by John Lobo on 14th Oct, 2008

We Catholics believe that we do not have a right to have sex before marriage no matter how madly you may be in love with each other. Love and marriage gives you a right and bless to enjoy sex for what it was created and the result is the creation of a child. Your are a party with God in the creation of a new life. We all do make mistakes in our life and Jesus came down into this world to save sinners and give them eternal life both here on earth and there after. Jesus said go your sins are forgiven This forgiveness conditional. Go and sin no more.
Call on the Holy Spirit any time and everytime you are tempted to commit sin and Jesus will bless you with peace and love . Jesus bless you and your friend. JOHN LOBO

JESUS IS THE WAY.

by Sebastian D'Souza on 14th Oct, 2008

Dear Sonia, I have gone through your letter. You are not the only one who has gone this experience but there are thousands of girls who have gone through similar situation. So do not worry. You have realised that it was a fault,may be yours or your boyfriend's does not matters but you are repenting which matters. So Remember one thing which is very very important, and that is repentance. God wants people to repent for their sins. That is first step. Second, You have to confess your sins to Jesus(1John 1:9) and ask him to forgive. See Acts chapter 2 verse 38 and do accordingly. Tell your boyfriend also to do the same as he is also involved. Once you do this, then you are free from every sin,which please note. This is called committing one's life to Jesus. Do that now.

Start reading bible daily and try to start from John's gospel. Daily read one or two chapters and meditate on that and thank God everytime when you read.Say this prayer to commit your life to Jesus. Tell your boyfriend to pray along with you. "Lord Jesus I believe that I am a sinner. I also believe that you died for my sins.Lord Jesus forgive my sins and cleanse my heart with your precious blood. Lord Jesus,thank you for forgiving my sins and also cleansing my heart. Lord Jesus I commit my life to you. Please give me your Holy Spirit to me. Lord Jesus I promise to read your word everyday and apply your word to my life. Lord Jesus for accpting me as your child. Thank you for giving your spirit to me. Loving Father I praise you and worship you in the mighty name of Jesus.Amen. " As you say this prayer now believe that by dying on the cross Jesus has paid the price for your sins. So,my dear child now you are free from your guilt.Don't ever remember anything of the past. Jesus has viped all your past.So now read his word as promised and rejoice. But do not commit that again. That's all. For Maria I have already written earlier. Let her do that. And get rid of those curses. Bye.

Sacrifices and penance does not help.

by Sebastian D'Souza on 14th Oct, 2008

Dear Mr.Ken Fernandes, I have gone through your advice. You say that one has to make sacrifices and penance to enter the kingdom of God. You have not written how long one has to do that. I am sorry to say that first of all you do not know God's word that is the bible. Because the Bible says. "Day after day every priest stands and performs his religious duties, again and again he offers the same sacrifices, which can never take away sins. "(Hebrew 10:11) Jesus has paid the price for our sins. You and I need not do any penance. When Jesus offered himself as a sacrifice on the cross the work is done once for all.No more sacrifice. For that we have to commit our life to Jesus,and ask forgiveness to Jesus. Please see the prayer which I have written to Sonia. Say that same prayer for yourself. You need to do that to save yourself. That prayer is for every sinner. Read bible especially New Testament. Start reading from John's gospel. Read everyday one or two chapters and meditate on what you read.God will help you. Read Acts chapter 2 verse 38 and do accordingly and you will be saved. Hallelujah. Bye.

Sometimes in order for God to forgive us, we must forgive ourselves first!

by K on 15th Oct, 2008

Dear Sonia,
There are a lot of things at play here. You are but a child even at 18yrs, alot wiser than you were two yrs ago, but all the same, a child! I do not expect anyone at 16yrs to be able to have sound judgement and have mature decision making power.

I think, you are suffering from guilt, not only about the abortion, but also about the fact that you are intimate with the man who is responsible for the actions you took 2 yrs ago.

What you need to do is really introspect and find out what you need to do in order to find forgiveness. Sometimes in order for God to forgive us, we must forgive ourselves first!

We all have regrets about action taken at some point in time in our lives. Some actions have consequences that are so severe that they change who we are forever and no matter how much we wish, we can never go back. What we can expect of ourselves is to do the best we can, with the knowledge we have at any given time.
You did the best that you were capable of at the time, there is no point beating yourself over it. Accept it, make peace with it, and move on. The past cannot be undone but you sure have control over the present and the future. God has not given you this life for you to torment yourself, but to experience his immense love, compassion and mercy.

You need to ask yourself the reason you continue to be intimate with your boyfriend? If it is not out of an expression of love, but merely out of physical needs, then you are bound to have the issues. Most religions are against sex before marriage, for a simple basic reason, it gives rise to unwanted pregnancies! People much older and wiser than you have issues in relationships and sex only complicated things! I think you are too young to be dealing with the issues you have and maybe it is too late for you to go back to your innocence, but salvage what you have left. Stop looking for momentary and instant gratification and work towards long term health and happiness.

A mistake is only a mistake when you repeat the second time round. So learn from your past experience.
You have been through a trauma, the burden of which you are probably carrying alone. No man will ever be able to understand the feelings and emotions that a woman goes through when it comes to giving birth of a child, giving one up for adoption or even deciding to have an abortion! These are life changing decisions and moments, which remain with a woman till the day she dies, no matter how many children she may have after.
My advice to you is to seek council, either from a trusted church official be it a priest or nun or even a devout layman, or get counselling from a facility that deals with such issues. What you are going through is not only a issue of religion and morality, but also a psychological one and if you don’t address it now, you will never find true peace and happiness that every human being deserves.

I would like to leave you with one last thought, If I who do not know you, can have sympathy and compassion for the pain and distress you are going through, think of how much more love, mercy, forgiveness, patience and understanding God is capable of??!!!!

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by Reuben Carron on 15th Oct, 2008

HI maria, committing a mistake is acceptable, but doing it again is a concern, health is wealth, latter on you will have very serious problems
so sort it out before it appears again, pray for peace..

repent

by roselin on 15th Oct, 2008

I feel that you are really sorry and so repent but don't look back and spoil the present regretting about the past. If god forgives why are you still carrying the guilt?

Dear Sonia

by Robin Lasrado on 16th Oct, 2008

"After that, God answered prayer in behalf of the land." 2 Samuel 21:14b
During the reign of David, there was a famine in the land for three successive years. So David sought the Lord regarding this famine, "Why is there famine on this land?" The Lord answered David, "It is on account of Saul and his blood-stained house; it is because he put the Gibeonites to death" (2 Sam. 21:1b).

Years earlier, Joshua made a peace treaty with the Gibeonites. This, too, was an act of disobedience. When God called Israel to come into the Promised Land, they were to destroy all the enemies of God. Joshua failed to see through the ruse of deception when the Gibeonites portrayed themselves as travelers. The Israelites signed a peace treaty only to discover who the Gibeonites were after the fact. Now, they had to honor the treaty. However, this led to intermarriages and much sorrow for Israel. Years later, Saul made a decision to kill the Gibeonites.

The nation was now receiving the punishment for their sin of disobedience through a famine. David knew that famines could have a spiritual source, so he inquired of God and God answered. The source was Saul's murder of the Gibeonites. Once David knew the source of the problem, he took action. He repented on behalf of the nation and made restitution. The famine was then lifted.

Repent for your sins before God and you will see the peace that will overflow you. Ask the Lord today to give you revelation on your situation. He may be allowing this pressure to bring attention to an issue He wants you to take care of. As a loving Father, He desires to make known anything that stands in the way of fellowship between you and Him. However, His righteousness must always be upheld.
Take care and God bless.

Sonia

by Lourdes Dcosta on 16th Oct, 2008

Forget the bygone. God our Father still loves you. Make a good confession tell the priest everything, as he takes the place of Jesus. However grave your sin has been, our Lord is there to receive you in his open caressing arms and forgive you, as he is our loving Father. Keep praying.

We have a forgiving God

by Eslin Wright on 16th Oct, 2008

hello maria i hav a friend by yr name and a niece by yr name...wots in a name? nothing...its only our actions that count most...being earthlings allow us to go astray but we catholics or christions in general fer that matter hav a forgining GOD now wotever i adzd sonia, apples to u...then theres atonement fer sins and that u must do..and fer chrisake, allow all this to get off yr mind...if help is needed see a doctor / psychiatrist and a priest... just dont worry.. life is so short that we dont hav the time to brood over things like yours which can be solved if u follow peoplse advice

We're lucky, we have a forgiving GOD

by Eslin Wright on 16th Oct, 2008

dear sonia i hav a niece with yr name... i'm 72 years of age and i hav experience of wot u youve done that cannot be undone....if youre a catholic see a priest and make a good confession...we're lucky we have a forgiving GOD .....also see a psychiatriest...done feel ashamed..wot u need is that u ought to get yr self back on trck and since u cant do it by yr self being yung and the fact that yr partner is also getting bored up which can happen, u need these two one a priest and 2 a psy......go to church frequently and recve holy communion...i dont know wot part of the planet you are, but where ever, u can start riteaway as if u delay then precious young years of yr life r going down the drain...mistakes happen cos we're human but we must hav to put our feet down and fight it out or else this will make u a complete wreck...youre suffering from guilt so seek the attn i adzd u bye then

The TWO GREAT EVILS

by Andy on 17th Oct, 2008

The TWO GREAT EVILS, the whore and the beast, reflect two sides of evil within mankind. On the one side there is the decadence, lust and greed. On the other side there is violence, anger and resentment. They are a left and right wing of the sinful nature of man. One side reflects the nature of the satan as the tempter, the other side the nature of satan as the accuser.

The people of God find themselves attracted to the whore and attacked by the beast, caught between temptation and accusattion. God wants to separate the bride from the whore and to protect the bride from the beast. We must have purity and humility on one side, and faith and authority on the other side.

REV 18:4 I heard another voice from heaven saying, "Come out of her, my people, lest you share in her sins, and lest you receive of her plagues."

God calls His people to separate themselves from worldliness through repentence. He calls us to COME OUT of the world. A wise man hears word of reproof, while a fool needs to be beaten with a rod Proverbs 10:13. If we cannot hear the message of repentance, judgement comes upon us. Part of God's method of judgment is to allow the beast spirit to attack the whore spirit. Therefore, we need to get out of both.

God's purposes are not only to separate the bride from the whore but to also destroy the beast. God will allow the beast to destory the whore and then He will destory the whore. At the second coming Yeshua Himself will destroy the beast. After that, there will only be left the pure bride and King Messiah.

Only Jesus Can Save you !

by Desmond & Delvisa on 18th Oct, 2008

John 12: 31 The time for judging this world has come, when Satan, the ruler of this world, will be cast out.

The ruler of this world is Satan, an angel who rebelled against God. Satan is real, not symbolic, and is constantly working against God and those who love and obey Him.

Satan tempted Eve in the garden and persuaded her to sin; he tempted Jesus in the wilderness and did not persuade Him to fall! (Matthew 4: 1-11).

Satan has great power on this earth, but people can be delivered from his reign of spiritual darkness because of Christ's victory on the Cross. Satan is powerful, but Jesus is much more powerful!

Jesus' resurrection shattered Satan's deathly power (Colossians 1: 13-14 For he has rescued us from the kingdom of darkness and transferred us into the Kingdom of his dear Son, who purchased our freedom and forgave our sins. ).
To overcome Satan we need faithful allegiance to God's Word, determination to stay away from sin, and the support of other believers.
1 John 4: 4 But you belong to God, my dear children. You have already won a victory over those people, because the Spirit who lives in you is greater than the spirit who lives in the world.

God, we praise Your Righteous Name!
We thank You for Your great love for us!
Thank You that we can call upon the Name of Jesus and be saved.
Thank You for the power that we have now that we are in Christ Jesus.
For Greater is He (Jesus) that is in us! Then he that is in the world!
Thank You Jesus! In Your Mighty Name, Amen..

God bless you!

WHAT WOULD BE YOUR PORTION?

by James Lewis on 19th Oct, 2008

Consider the following verses:
"He who is pregnant with evil and conceives trouble gives birth to disillusionment. He who digs a hole and scoops it out falls into the pit he has made. The trouble he causes recoils on himself; his violence comes down on his own head" (Psalm 7:14-16).

"Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows. The one who sows to please his sinful nature, from that nature will reap destruction; the one who sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life" (Galatians 6:7-8).

"Let him who does wrong continue to do wrong; let him who is vile continue to be vile; let him who does right continue to do right; and let him who is holy continue to be holy. Behold, I am coming soon! My reward is with me, and I will give to everyone according to what he has done" (Revelation 22:11-12).

What would be your portion if God decides to reward people according to their deeds today? Would you be rewarded with good things or with bad things? While your entering His kingdom depends on your relationship with Jesus Christ, your rewards both on earth and in heaven depend on you.

Selfrighteousness is a sin.

by Sebastian D'Souza on 20th Oct, 2008

Dear Mr.Steve Robertson(Alban John Lewis) I have gone through your letters written one to Joyce and now to Sonia. First I will write your statements
1. You say "I live and lived with the world's most beautiful girls, bringing them to life, without me they would never had what they got today.
2.I have not touched any, although thousands of them made various attempts.
3.I have never looked at a woman with lust, nor kissed one nor held one.
4.I am pious, spotless, this is what it takes to love God.
5.I am termed Living Saviour of the world.
6.I am a billionare.

Now my dear Alban John Lewis, I would like to request you to read your own statements at a glance and I would be very happy if you could just ponder over each statement for few minutes and see for yourself what it means to say those things. First and foremost I would like to appreciate your work which you are doing among the prostitutes. You are bringing them out of their profession and rehabilitating them by providing what they need. I can understand your kindness towards them. This is very good no doubt about it. But the way your are putting it in words makes the difference. It smells nothing but pride. Sorry to say this. I have no business to interfere in your personal life. But when you advise some one, this pride should not come. You can advise but not this way. You are from Mangalore, brought up in Mumbai but now settled in Scandinivia. I appreciate being an Indian whatever you are doing for the prostitutes in foreign countries and not in your motherland. I would request you to, and would expect you to do something for your own country too.

When you think yourself pious, spotless, without lust towards women, all these things show that you consider yourself without sin. Am I right? Over and above you say that you are termed yourself as the LIVING SAVIOUR OF THE WORLD. Mr.Lewis don't you feel that you are exhaulting yourself above Jesus Christ calling yourself as the saviour of the world?. It is blasfame. You are committing sin and that too against God. What a terrible thing to commit sin against God. I am sorry to ask you to peep into your heart for a moment and see what God has to say. Will you do it? Your work, your money and whatever you have is not going to take you to God. Because our good works and righteous acts are filthy rags before God.(Isaiah 64:6) I would give you one important (Mantra) verse from the bible. "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well. "(Mathew 6:33) Let me say again that your good works and your wealth, your righteousness is not going to take you to heaven. After all it is said in the bible. "What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeit his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul? (Mathew 16:26).

My dear brother, please think over my words and try to seek God first. You don't know God, that's why you talk that way. Now you are talking rather I would say roaring like a lion but God would appreciate if you come before him like a small innocent child and say this prayer. "Lord Jesus, I believe that I am a sinner,I also believe that you died for my sins. Lord Jesus forgive my sins and cleanse my heart with your precious blood and make me righteous. Lord Jesus thank you for forgiving my sins and making me worthy to come before you. Lord Jesus give me your Holy Spirit which you have promised. Thank you for giving me your spirit. Lord Jesus I promise to read your word everyday and live according to your word. Lord Jesus I commit my life into your hand. Please accept my prayer which I make in your name. Amen."

I would request your wife also to join you in above prayer. Once again I would request you to consider and do as I have said. I have written this because I love you. I would also appreciate if you do something for your motherland. I hope you will not mind for asking something for your own country. After all you are indebted towards your own country, isn't it?.Invest for the kingdom of God. Sorry for taking your precious time. Please forgive me for that. Bye.

Sitting at His feet.

by Diane on 21st Oct, 2008

The Lord is calling us back to his bosom. The cares and busyness of life have moved us away from the essence of Him. Our problems and obligations have loomed larger than our love for Him. We have left our love. Although we are still doing things for Him and are busy for Him, we have neglected the one thing that matters the most.
Sitting at his feet.

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